When Sue was diagnosed with ovarian cancer she didn't know where to turn. Frightened and confused, it was only when she stumbled across Target Ovarian Cancer's support line that she finally found the comfort she'd been seeking…
I felt so guilty at first. I didn't want to tell anyone that I had cancer because I felt like it was my fault. I thought, "where do I turn?", "what do I do?". That’s when I googled and found Target Ovarian Cancer. I didn't know what to expect – I just wanted someone to talk to.
Six months before I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer, I had taken early retirement and was looking forward to being a 'lady of leisure', with some lovely holidays booked.
I had some indigestion – it felt like my food wasn't going down fast enough – it wasn't comfortable to sleep on my front and I needed to pee more often than usual, but it was all quite subtle and didn't ring any alarm bells with me.
Then one morning I was lying in bed and I started to prod my tummy, as it had been uncomfortable when I was trying to sleep on my front. That's when I felt a big lump. I went to the GP and she sent me for an ultrasound and blood tests. After the ultrasound, I went back to the GP and told her that I was scared I might have ovarian cancer, and she said "absolutely not". That was before my CA125 came back at over 6,000. For me, the CA125 was a huge indicator. The test saved my life.
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I was referred to Guy's Hospital in London for further treatment.
I think I was in shock at first. I was panicking because I didn't really know much about ovarian cancer and when I tried speaking to another cancer charity I didn't get many answers. At the time I didn't have a named clinical nurse specialist, so after discovering Target Ovarian Cancer online, I decided to try calling their support line. I didn't know what to expect, but the nurse I spoke to was brilliant!
She phoned me back within the hour and explained to me what would happen with the chemo and surgery. She was obviously a specialist nurse for people who had cancer. She was very, very kind and everything she told me was helpful.
Over the next few months I had three lots of chemo, then an operation and three more rounds of chemo. I was also offered the chance to take part in the Avelumab trial. As part of my maintenance therapy I get infusions of the drug every two weeks for potentially two years while the trial is running.
I think the worst part of the chemo treatment was probably losing my hair. It came out in clumps on the 17th day after my first chemo and my husband ended up helping me to shave the rest of it off. We sat on the floor of the bedroom, sobbing our hearts out. My hair eventually grew back very curly and very grey. I'm now embracing the grey colour but I'm still not sure about the curls!
My message to other women would be, get out there and enjoy your life. Don't let anyone tell you that you can't do something – you can! I’ve met up with a group of other women via the Target Ovarian Cancer Facebook group, and we now meet every few months and have a WhatsApp group where we speak almost every day – it's a great support for me.
I want others to know that you can live with this. You just have to keep going. Don't get me wrong, you wouldn't be normal if you didn't feel down, but you can pull yourself up again. The doctors haven't made me better so I can just sit around and do nothing. I want to live as well as I can.